What you first notice when you're looking at a mirror, at this specific period of time. Is it yourself, is it others, or is it the surroundings. The first thing you're looking at probably is the upmost priority for you this year.
Today is the very last day of the year. It is a time worth of celebration, a time to let go/forgive and well as a time for reflection.
We will have record of 2 years instead of 1 - 2023/2024. The memories of 2023 still present right now in my mind, even the outcome is still here today.
Looking back at 2023, is as I am looking at a mirror. I see myself first, others second and surroundings comes last.
2023 is a challenging year for me. It was filled with variety of obstacles and a small road with thorns on one of the side or the other. It is a year with very important responsibilities that I have to undertake where I will be on my own moving forward. Every decision that I made will solely need to consider all the requirements and condition that need to be fulfilled.
One example is such as moving out. There is consideration on sustainability, what/what not to buy, paper works and those legal stuff that need to adhere. After that, it is time to check on the others side - which is the people there, the community and the most important is the next door neighbors. Then, surroundings comes into play, the environment, how noisy or quiet is it, available nearby facilities and so forth.
In short, I moved out in 2023, it may not be as huge for some, but as this is my first, so it felt like a huge ones back then.
On career side, everything the same as well. It is almost impossible to have everything smooth whenever our job requires to deals with people or to some extend - tools. The IT department introduces new tools as assistance to make our job easier, but that's not always the case. We got to deal with tools having breakdown, or a bug appear out of nowhere and at times, it just felt doing it manually was better due to the slowness that it comes along with using the tools. In short, it is not efficient and causing us tons of backlog during that time.
Next is on people. This is probably norm by now, where people forget, people wanted A things but provide B samples, last minutes changes and so much more. Hence, the job never get bored as the challenge which we may face every time there's an issue is always different. We got to learn more from that, and be more proactive. It is only the tools issue which is no-go for us, as that is only able to resolve by those experts.
Moving on is about myself in 2023, and why there is no yearly summary for that year. After having a very luxurious buffet company dinner end of November. Somehow I got sick for almost 2 month half till half of February.
For someone who did not get sick for years, guess sick come and tax me all at once. During that period alone, I lost 20kg+ and almost admitted to hospital if my weight continue to drop. Check up 2 times at different clinic, they're unable to figure out what's wrong other than regular sickness. The 3rd ones which is traditional medicine was somewhat able to, suspected me of having sort of bowel issue.
Basically what happened was probably I have too much of lamb steaks during the buffet. That causes bowel issue where for 1months+, I went to washroom almost immediately after consuming any sort of foods or even drink. My body was not able to absorb any nutrients - something like that but it was not serious till need for hospitalization.
So I forced to only have breads with plain water - this is the combination which last the longest before I went to washroom. At the same time, I was also advised to take up supplement as my body was not having enough nutrients. I got gradually better and by 2nd month half, considered to be recovered. The outcome still linger as of today where I still haven't gain back much weight.
Hence, this is why I was unable to actually write a review for 2023.. myself as a whole is quite weak during that time and only lying on bed most of the time unless its working hours where I will need for WFH. Luckily, the work load wasn't much during that time.
This is the end of 2023. I am the one looking at the mirror. Focusing on each and every tasks based on my priorities - me, others and surroundings. There are a lot of challenges, and we're able to overcome throughout each and every of them.
For 2024, it is the reflection which we're seeing on the mirror. It imitates what we did. What I've been focusing last year, is the reflection or results/outcome that I receives this year.
This is the 2nd year whereby I have officially moved out. Of course with time passes, now we have adapt to the changes. There are still tons to learn, we will continue to walk step by step and learn not run before we are able to even jog. That is for this year where I started to learn cooking. As I am someone who is totally not touching the kitchen till now, we are starting slowly with easier to make stuff such as fried eggs/rice, brewing coffee/tea (not using coffee machine).
For career wise, things started to get better, the tools are improving and new features being added which makes our work much easier (Will we get layoff instead if everything is able to handle by these tools haha). The people side is not an issue honestly, its more of a norm where there are people, there are opportunities, of course, there are troubles as well. This is still the most refreshing side of the task, because it is always something new, something unexpected and weird requests coming up. It is one of my tasks to ensure that this can go through without much problem. Of course, there are also times where I am the issue, I am the cause of the error. Hence, learning never ends and still much looking forward to next and more coming years.
Moving on, for my personal growth, I believed specifically that my communication and decision making skills improved a lot this year. There are huge changes with the communities of a games which I have played. It is a decision on whether to stay at the current worlds or moved to a more populated worlds where there is much more opportunities.
I decided to stay on and with almost 85% of the population migrating over, this shrinks to a very small communities now. The good side of is that we get along better, some overcome their long time grudges and everyone who stay become more friendly. While the downside is now we are having issue with clearing our drops in monetary gains (this is against the TOS - so it is at your own risks). There are still new players coming in to this 20 years old games now. But, it should takes quite a while before we're able to get back the communities which has built here since 7 years ago (7 years ago, there are similar events which allow for migration between worlds, I decided to stay as well back then).
While for my health update, I have recovered however, still I did not gain much weight up to now.
Basically, I am about the same as back in February this year. My appetite is back to normal now, just that's it.
That's it for 2024. Thanks for having me still !!
guess I started to feel older now so, stay healthy and let us welcomes the new year with confidence and strength !!
After all, we are just a tiny bit of small sparks in the universe
- W|nD 2024