夢 世界

First of all, it is now March, the third month of the year. Here I am, sitting down at my usual place in the room, facing my monitor and writing this post. As stated in the title, sure some situation happened and that time, there is no plan B, but only plan A where if A is ruin, everything would be ruined and it did happen.

February this year would be one of my worst month that I ever had. Everything just doesn't seem right and obstacle everywhere. Unfortunate happens and bad situation keep occur one after another. It is like everything just went downhill for me. By that, it means that my hope on further my studies isn't going well at all. That also means that I am not able to further my studies as of the situation that I am in. It is a matter of I can't and not that I don't want.

Thanks to that, all my plan got ruined right away, and I was put in a coma for sometime, somewhat is in a state of unbelievable that my plan would be ruined after all these careful planning. Thanks for withdrawing at the last minute which put everything to be in ruined state. It is my fault as well, for putting faith into something which have already known would have backed off during the time that I need it the most. Well, it doesn't just back off, but instead I got friendly-fire for not performing particular stuff and task at the moment. But, first of all, did you actually asked what the plan is ? Did you actually notice what I am doing at the moment ? more important would be, Did you actually care ? From my perspective, there is only one single answer which is a big NO.

Well, what happen is irreversible and changes made is real-time basis. Hence, there is no turning back and I am only able to take this plan as another lesson to learn in a path of crafting my yet unknown destiny. This too might be my actual first time to post some real stuff here happens to me, as most of the time, I would just take a deep breath and said "it is always like that" except for this one, that when I got informed, my first reaction is no reaction out to my surprise, perhaps I already get used to it and it had become a norm to me. All I could do is to put the blame onto myself for miscalculating and putting faith on the wrong side. On the bright side, I got another valuable experience and looks like there is still lots for me to learn.

That would be it for now I guess, since it is still early March and there is nothing special to be written down yet. For those reading this myself included, remember to always PLAN A BACKUP or PLAN B or get screwed just like me.

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